The Taboo – I Won’t Read the Tarot Naked

I turned down an interesting request today, for a nude tarot reading. I explained that would be breaking taboos that bind my Spiritual Work. And that’s just my personal feeling, I have a former stripper friend who started reading tarot on the backstage while topless. I know at least one famous cam girl who reads tarot on the same menu as various sex acts that you can pay for to see her perform. I just don’t mix the two and I feel pretty strong about it.

Either you look me in the eyes even if I was naked / covered in blood / risen from the grave because this is Serious Magick, or you’re looking at my titties which is adorable of course, and highly promoted at the right places but it’s a totally different thing.

Or, could it be actually that as the Priestess of Ishtar I am more of a Dominatrix who is untouchable? Could it be so?

This is how I see it ~ my modeling is all about creating that fiction, drama, entertainment. My magical work is not. It’s very real. It’s serious business. It’s not for the cameras either. It can be spoken of, but not profaned as content for media. I don’t ever film myself in ritual or take pictures of my rituals for the clients or the public. It’s not an artistic endeavor for me, I appreciate occult-themed art and even witchy photoshoots but there is a big difference.

Keeping it separate helps to keep it powerful. Taboos exist for that very reason.

The Black Magic Love Conundrum

𝕾𝖔, 𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖈𝖚𝖗𝖎𝖔𝖘𝖎𝖙𝖞, 𝖌𝖎𝖛𝖊𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖆𝖗𝖗𝖎𝖆𝖌𝖊, 𝖆𝖗𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖓𝖔 𝖑𝖔𝖓𝖌𝖊𝖗 𝖆 𝕭𝖑𝖆𝖈𝖐 𝕸𝖆𝖌𝖎𝖈𝖎𝖆𝖓, 𝖔𝖗 𝖜𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖉𝖎𝖉 𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖘𝖆𝖈𝖗𝖎𝖋𝖎𝖈𝖊 𝖋𝖔𝖗 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝕷𝖔𝖛𝖊?

Yes, I made a Sacrifice. A big, royal, inhuman type of Sacrifice. A Sacrifice of enormous value is needed whenever a notorious Black Magician asks for Love, but it is merely one of Five Conditions that must be met for the Black Magician to manifest Love. According to my gnosis, five conditions must be met, and they are a subject of this treatise.

But first, a definition of Love, and the riddle we are trying to solve here:

It is the ambition of Black Magicians to manifest Love in their lives 𝔴𝔦𝔱𝔥𝔬𝔲𝔱 denunciation of their own Path, and their own Nature.

To do so would negate the very definition of Love. How?

A wise man said, “Love… is a deep emotion that we feel toward those who fulfill our deepest needs.”

Each of us has somewhat different needs that stem from our personality, and psychological make-up. Loyalty, passion, security, intellectual understanding. Beneath all these relationship needs, the wise man said, lies one –

“Our deepest need is to be accepted and loved for exactly who we are.”

So, despite the tempting proposition to do, the Black Magician cannot resolve this conundrum by becoming someone else, for the sake of being loved, for that would negate the nature of Love itself. Yes, there lies a Path.

Its elements must be aligned correctly, and the treasures will be unlocked only by those truly deserving, only by those truly worth it. It is the Heart locked in the cage that is within an egg that lies in a nest that is found on the tallest tree on the highest mountain, on an island in the middle of the ocean.


Your Spouse needs to have the same kind of spiritual allegiance as you do, otherwise, your lifepaths will never align. Since the desire for secret knowledge and spiritual ascent is also among your deepest needs, it will never work in the long run. Unions of convenience with muggles, however nice and cozy, fall apart. You are a Seeker, Initiate. You long for the Mysteries. Nobody can ever strip that away from you.

Your desire to align with the Dark Powers had been expressed in Pacts, Oaths, and Covenants with spirits, in various eras, before you ever came to this life, and has been possibly re-affirmed by the Pacts you took on in this life. What it means is that if you serve Lucifer and you wish for a spouse, they must accept HIM as well. Not because the Prince of Darkness has a hold over your Soul, and would sabotage you otherwise. No. It is because your Covenant, for as long as it is in existence, is an expression of your True Desire, which in turn is the expression of your own Free Will. Love is all about Free Will. Conversely, it means that my fiance has entered a Covenant with Lucifer. His majority allegiance is to the Angelic Hosts, but he will walk both paths now and “work with both hands”, as the Haitian Hougans say, which is quite rare, and achieved rarely. Solomon failed at it, he was sucked into Darkness, but it´s been shown to him by Chernobog, the Black God of my Ancestors, as the only solution. Embody Satan, with your left arm, they said, it´s the only way. You will need giant balls for that. When you take the Bride of Satan, you will be granted a permission, from the Infernal Courts, they said, and he actually did have a vision which I witnessed, which was rather unsettling, as we went to pick up our Marriage License at the county courthouse. Something passed over the clerk, this old lady, and suddenly there was another reality, in which she scrutinized something other than our papers, she was the Clerk of Hell checking whether all conditions of the Pact have come true.


If your allegiance to the Dark Current is as old and as strong as mine, you find yourself in a position of taking care of Satan´s Flock, as one of HIS Priesthood. This is true of anyone who does magic and divination, or energy work for a living, and for anyone who has been known, as an author, who speaks from the position of authority. If you have ever lead a group, or a coven, taught others, have no doubt that Priesthood is yours. Not everybody who is an Initiate has Priesthood, and this Mandate exists in varying gravity. If you are a professional metaphysician, like me, for a decade (I actually never had a day job), then you are in deep waters, and this is the Second Condition that must be reconciled.

I have long ago realized that since my Soul carries the duties of Priesthood and Sacred Service from many lifetimes, and I am actually a full-time spiritualist, meaning “I have no life outside of the Occult”, it will only really work if the spouse shares the same destiny, and willingly accepts it. The True Christians actually got it right – you do not take a vow to your spouse, you take a vow to God, together, who in return gives you a special mandate of Priesthood that is the Sacrament of Marriage. This mandate needs always to come first. Me and my fiance have had numerous lifetimes together as clergy of some sort, so that makes it easier. Sometimes it means that you just wanna have sex, but instead end up channeling spirits for three hours. Even when the First and the Second Conditions are met, because of Karmic residue from your history of Black Magic, there is going to be a sacrifice required from you.


A Sacrifice of enormous value is required when a notorious Black Magician asks for Love. The actions of the Warlock vibrate on the string furthest from Love, but Love is what you need, and that presents us with a curious task of Bridging the Abyss, somehow. The Bridge is formed by Sacrifice. In order to find my Soulmate, I made a massive Sacrifice. I gave up everything I had built, and relied on, for my entire life in Prague. I left my entire life behind me, in the Old World on the other side of the Atlantic. Friends, business, reputation, everything. I left with two suitcases, and a lot of faith. It almost killed me in Mexico. And it worked. The Sacrifice in this case I am talking about is not one of Blood Sacrifice, but it is a Killing. It came in the form of personal cost that I had to pay upfront, no guarantees given. The price to manifest a particular relationship is always a Sacrifice insofar that we have to forget about other life choices and another lifepath that will no longer be available to us. The Latin root for “decide” is “cadere”, literally, to kill. Samael, the Venom of God and the Old Testament Divine Executioner was, curiously, the first-ever spirit whom I had petitioned for a husband many years ago. He is both an Angel and a Demon, which was foreshadowing things to come.


That last part of the spell comes when a profound Internal Shift is achieved by the Black Magician, and it is the real turning point on his journey to manifest True Love. I would like to say it can be achieved by meditation, but I for a fact on my personal rock bottom. Black Magicians are tough motherfuckers, who stand in their own way viciously, and they need to break down in order to be able to receive True Love. I hate to report this, but it is likely going to happen to you. If you make a sincere enough call for True Love, you will be broken. You must be disempowered, for your own good, to experience this shift in values. Let me guess: As a Black Magician you don´t truly value Love, Caring and Compassion for the treasure they are, and that´s a huge problem. You cannot manifest that which you do not value from the bottom of your heart, that which you are not sincerely grateful to receive. The New Agers were onto something with this whole Gratefulness business. As Black Magicians, we value power over everything, but True Love implies being powerless and being vulnerable. It also implies being True to yourself and to the other person.

The Secret lies within you, Dear Black Magician, and the last Key to the Ignition is your values aren´t aligned right. There is some absolutely Key-Value that you are missing, not appreciating, not realizing How Key it is, and how much your life sucks without it. It might be the force of habit or something that you have repressed. For me, it was Kindness. I was used to being bullied and mistreated for so long I didn´t realize this Value, and so I couldn´t be grateful for it. The universe for some reason hates ungrateful bastards and refuses to manifest shit.


Certain Oaths and Pacts of Dark Nature that specifically prevent fulfillment in marriage must be abandoned by both spouses. We found the hard way, for once we announced our engagement, we begun to be harassed by Lilith. Lilith is among the spirits who oppose marriage by their nature. Lilith is the Dominatrix, and the Mistress, she is the Avenger of Women. She told me she was infuriated that I chose a man over my Sisters, and allowed myself to depend on a man financially. I didn´t realize how much affinity I developed for Lilith when I lived alone for years running my witchcraft business. I was the mistress literally, dating married men, notoriously typecast as the dark and sexy femme fatale. I had never in my life depended on a man, and never expected to. Then it all suddenly changed and made it difficult to sustain favor with Lilith, who made such grave demands on me that I couldn´t fulfill the Pact. So I gave it up. If you have never manifested that which you are seeking, what you are seeking will be a completely new chapter in your life. Not all Covenants you currently embody you can take with you to the next phase of your life. You might need new patrons to bless the two of you together, you may discover some old ones need appeasing. You must find every Covenant, every Pact or Oath that somehow limits your personal life, and deal with the deities. Find Gods who are actually in favor of your Union, and serve them accordingly.