I wasted twenty five of my life in the study of Metaphysics, only to find out that the Human Beast is governed by a few Basic Lusts. The desire to wank, procreate, attain status and prestige within their tribe, and social acceptance. That’s it. And it really explains everything. There is no reason to go deeper, ‘You can beat hell on Level 1.’
You can beat Hell on Level 1.
Lucifer
And so, having gone through hell to gain Lucifer’s Knowledge, made it all the way through, I find myself on square one — Hell spits me out on that other side of it, the shallowest end, in the Ring of Lust, where the priestess of Lilith told me I must move myself to.
This is the end of Anima Noira as the Occult Celebrity.
I will pursue no more ambitions of this sort in this life, be it publishing, broadcasting, teaching public workshops, etc. I embarked on this Path, not knowing where it would lead, and it led me to Hell. I thought last year that I was very much done for, having developed a chronic neurological condition from incessant cursing and chronic stress. I became homeless, I became a world traveler pilgrim with no more country to call home.
I got this career from my first successful Pact, this Pact got me on front-page news and on late-night TV already in my twenties. It didn’t bring me happiness, and I spent years in a desperate plot to escape that which I had created. Like an old alchemist or a wizard, I was seeking to escape my own creation, and I ended up inadvertently creating enough haters that they pushed me out of the field. Part of it is general misogyny and the decline of the social media era, another large part is integral to it.
People stuck in the Deepest Pit of Hell are not good people. They are filled with entitlement of the worst sort, they believe themselves to be all-powerful, and in reality they are just full of shit. Spiritual Attainments cannot be sold, so all that can be traded are the same old lusts. I am an Entertainer. I am acutely aware of it. I’ve just become too jaded with this whole hypocrisy, the greed, and the awful human beings one encounters in the Pit of Hell.
My current new line of work is much more lightweight. Yoshiwara the Pleasure District of the Red Lanterns has incarnated on this timeline, with all its quirky and fun characters. Just two years ago, I still thought I was ‘too good’ to do this harlotry, I sought prestige as the High Priestess. No more. The abuse and the hate have really worn me down. I can only take so much of people trying to kill me, of men trying to degrade me every single day.
The current Anima Noira is doing Modeling, Exotic Dancing, Domination, and Assorted Harlotries. You may know her as a Purveyor of Lilithian Pleasures. Perhaps, some will even find their enlightenment and salvation this way. Why not?
There is no reason they shouldn’t, since you can beat hell on level one. We can go back to the land of faery tales, where Lilith shows you the way as Little Red Riding Hood, luring the Wolf into Her Lair, and where King Asmodeus takes her for a ride as the Dark Horse.
