I rarely take the time to share candid moments from my daily life in service as the Administrator in Hell. I thought today’s correspondence was rather illuminating, for the Black Magician who may come across it one day, so I decided to share it in fullness.
Lawrence H. is interested in Mentorship Spiritual Guidance - All my life, I have only wanted one thing: a loving, fulfilling relationship. I have never experienced this for more than a few days or weeks. I have had one bad relationship after another in my life. I had a 6 year relationship with a 40-year-old woman end exactly a year ago. I have also, very frequently, chose dysfunctional women over psychologically healthy ones. I sabotage myself a lot. I am getting older now, and I want to have a long-term relationship, maybe a lifetime relationship with the woman of my dreams. I am a 69-year-old man, looking for a woman under 40 years of age, who is beautiful, petite, creative, sensual, intelligent, loyal, available, open-minded, who is my muse, who makes love perfectly with me, who gives me incredible sexual pleasure, who is consistent, who can and will spend her days and nights with me, who will stand by me even if I am sick and old, and who is NOT a gold-digger. Is this possible?
Lawrence,
What gives you the conviction that you, in fact, deserve such a woman? Has it ever occurred to you to ask yourself what can you offer to such a woman, or are you only thinking about yourself? This is not love, and therein lies the most obvious answer to your question. No, you won’t find love in this life, because you are incapable of loving.
It is too late for the likes of you, I can only be thankful that I woke up soon enough in life. You are stuck in the Ring of Pride which is the deepest Pit of Hell. Your entitlement is staggering.
Magick or even Demonic Pacts will only manifest more of the same in your remaining time, should you choose to resort to them, or the services of professional magicians.
Take the hint.
Anima Noira
For those who are truly interested in breaking their continued bad luck in love, I have plotted a coming workshop, Love Magick for the Damned.
